snowman
Diamond
- Joined
- Jul 31, 2004
- Location
- Southeast Michigan
I've been open about my depression in the past. I am on meds, I see a therapist regularly, my diet is reasonable, etc etc etc.
Lately my memory is bad. As in really bad. I walk to the shop and get there and realize I forgot what I went there for. I carry a notebook, as it's the only thing that keeps me functional.
Anxiety is high, but it's manageable. Actually, I'm doing a great job of not feeling anxious, or dealing with it when I do feel it.
If you've ever been a pot smoker, that's my mental capacity pretty much 24/7. Great ideas, or at least seemingly great ideas, that I can't remember for more than a couple of seconds.
Reading is difficult, extended concentration is difficult. Analytical / Logical thinking is my strong suit, until lately...it kills me.
I get strange pains in my shoulders/chest region. None of it cardiac related.
I walked away from the job eight months ago...best thing I ever did. I've spent more time with family. I've forced myself to figure out how to make it on my own...balancing Ebay sales against monthly expenses. I can honestly say that we are almost there...and by "there", I mean, no longer struggling financially.
But...I'm still concerned about the mental fog. I've talked with my therapist about it...and the response is that it's common with anxiety/depression. Anxiety is likely rooted in Dad's declining health...he has terminal cancer. Lots of unknowns. But also in day to day life, the figuring out a new road part of it. Hell, even my cognitive disfuction causes anxiety.
So...I ask. Any of you had such an experience, where it was caused by anxiety, or by other semi-external forces?
I'm now considering tapering off all of my meds to flush that shit out of my system and starting over. Actually, already had my doc lower the dose on one of them. If I find I need them once I've been clean for a while, so be it, but the only reason I take them now is because if I don't, I get dizzy as hell by one in the afternoon.
Lately my memory is bad. As in really bad. I walk to the shop and get there and realize I forgot what I went there for. I carry a notebook, as it's the only thing that keeps me functional.
Anxiety is high, but it's manageable. Actually, I'm doing a great job of not feeling anxious, or dealing with it when I do feel it.
If you've ever been a pot smoker, that's my mental capacity pretty much 24/7. Great ideas, or at least seemingly great ideas, that I can't remember for more than a couple of seconds.
Reading is difficult, extended concentration is difficult. Analytical / Logical thinking is my strong suit, until lately...it kills me.
I get strange pains in my shoulders/chest region. None of it cardiac related.
I walked away from the job eight months ago...best thing I ever did. I've spent more time with family. I've forced myself to figure out how to make it on my own...balancing Ebay sales against monthly expenses. I can honestly say that we are almost there...and by "there", I mean, no longer struggling financially.
But...I'm still concerned about the mental fog. I've talked with my therapist about it...and the response is that it's common with anxiety/depression. Anxiety is likely rooted in Dad's declining health...he has terminal cancer. Lots of unknowns. But also in day to day life, the figuring out a new road part of it. Hell, even my cognitive disfuction causes anxiety.
So...I ask. Any of you had such an experience, where it was caused by anxiety, or by other semi-external forces?
I'm now considering tapering off all of my meds to flush that shit out of my system and starting over. Actually, already had my doc lower the dose on one of them. If I find I need them once I've been clean for a while, so be it, but the only reason I take them now is because if I don't, I get dizzy as hell by one in the afternoon.